its funny, my last entry was about how id gotten all in love and happy...
well that didn't last at all.
turns out, she couldn't handle things or what the fuck ever,we did fight a few times, but who doesn't? id never had a girlfriend in my life before her, what the fuck did she expect? that i was going to be mister perfect..when i told her so many times i wasn't. than, at the end of last October told me she was going to visit her parents for a "visit" or vacation as she also said and id asked her to not spend more than 2 weeks up there, 3 at the most, but no, end of the 3rd week rolls around, and she wonders why i was angry on the phone!than its a month..2..3..i sent her messages through myspace when she stopped talking to me on the phone, just asking her to tell me its over, for good..and even now she never did. *sighs* if i hadn't been so blinded by my love for her, id have seen what she was doing...but i was, and it tore me up,
i spent alot of nights crying myself to sleep, hating myself, blaming myself for her leaving...
all i know is...love is a real bitch.